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Wednesday, July 29th, 2009
12:03 am	THis is to him... Soo..sooooo....this has already been said but i feel like saying it again!.... Thank you for making me worthless in you eyes... So from now on when you think of me just remember i could have been the best thing you ever had... One day your going to wake up and realize how much you care about me... And when that day comes....I'll be waking up with the guy that already knew.... Someday you'll cry for me like I cried for you.... Someday you'll miss me like I missed you..... Someday You'll need me like I needed you... Someday you'll love me but I wont love you!... Current Mood: crushed Current Music: the replacements (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 20th, 2009
1:06 am	soooooo life is not measured by the number of breathes we take but by the number of moments that take our breath away! Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: slience (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 18th, 2009
2:04 am	Search for Important people! If  anyone knows Deanna Patton contact me. I need to know where she is! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
12:53 pm	WOW! ITS SO AMAZING!! O YOUR GOD!!! I CANT BELIVE IT!!!! Richard and I have been together for 5 months and 1 day. Its the longest relationship I've been in! I REALLY DO LOVE HIM!  Its amazing how good he is to me eccept when he's a cool kid. (drinkin) by the way...........  ITS NOT COOL TO DRINK!!!!!! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
3:36 pm	valintines day round two hi this is chelseas boyfriend and i have a few things to say.chelsea you know i care about you very much i have never loved anyone as much as i love you and that is the honest to gods truth i am sorry for acting like a jackass the other night on valintines day. it wasn't your fault i just kepted thinking about what i would do if i lost you i don't know why but i just did. i cryed the whole time i was riding home with my mom and she was drilling me the whole time about what was wrong and i just kepted it bottle up like i always try to do but when i am around you chelsea i feel like i can tell you and that is why i usually do and because you make me. i have not always had people to talk to about things and this is really the first time i have ever felt like i could talk to someone and it is hard to just to start talking to someone about how you feel deep down inside when you havn't really done it before so im alittle rusty . i am so scared because i love you so much it breaks my heart to even think of losing you/not having you for the rest of my life. because i want you with me for the rest of my life and even after that. if there is an after that. i feel like we are a perfect match and that you feel the same way and if you don't i wished you would tell me as soon as you start to feel those feelings which i hope and prey to god that you don't ever have those feelings and sometimes out of the blue i think what about you and him and you know who i mean by him. it's like this if i was hanging out with krysti when you were not there and when you were there all you saw was us pushing eachother and things that look sorta like flurting you would be like hmmm i wonder.... but i don't feel like it all the time i used to before i talked to you about it and that maid me feel better but sometimes i still do just because it is permanatly imprented in the back of my head and as hard as i try i can't get it out it won't. also it maid me feel like shit when preston was like when you are not around and even when you are around sometimes they act like there really good friends and then he said you know what i mean by really good friends right. then i really start to wonder what if my 2nd best friend was to do something with the women i want to grow old with i swear to god i would probley kill him i wouldn't be able to stop. you mean everything to me and even if i had nothing nothing at all and i still had you i would be the happiest man that has ever walked on this earth well i am running out of time so i gotta go I LOVE YOU AND I ALWAYS WILL Richard Current Mood: scared (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 28th, 2005
2:33 pm	I HAD SEX LAST NIGHT! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I'm proud of myself... I guess.....   Current Mood: dirty (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 24th, 2005
8:37 pm	I hate being sick. Today i was at school and i slept the whole morning then when i woke up i felt like i was gunna puke. so i ran to the bathroom. When i came back into the class room she told me she was gunna send me home. So i went to the gas station to see richard. Drove around with kirby, dale, and richard for like 5 mins  and i hit a garbage can lid. then i left to my moms work then came back to the gas station to tell deanna i wasnt going to college. Gave Richard a kiss and came home and slept all day. Tara Pollitte is really anoying. Only because she calls every 5 seconds. If i dont answer the first time, second time 3rd time 8th time then maybe i dont wanna talk. Well i didnt answer because i was sick nad i was asleep. Well im gunna go back to sleep. ~peace~ *stewy* Richard is sexy! Current Mood: sick Current Music: the animal (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
8:54 pm	Have you ever  wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest  things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs. Have you ever decided not to become a  couple because you were so afraid  of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and  whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart  what to do. It does it on its own....when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it  to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other  person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too  much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at  all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell li! es when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will  think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every  time  we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows  stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder  what they would have done, or could  have  had. * What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say  good-bye? *What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be  there? *What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care  anymore)*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them. I like Richard alot and it scares me.  AHHHHHHHHHHHH! THaTs ALl i HaVE ToO saY aBoUt ThiS.. I guess.. HA HOW IRONIC>>>>.......... I'm HuNgrY..... I ABSOlUTeLY HATE THE SAYING "GET-R-DONE"!! IT SHOULD DIE O YEAH ME AND KRYSTI ARE FRIENDS AGAIN>> iMAGINE THAT ~PEACE~ *STEWY* Current Mood: rushed (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
8:57 pm	FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY! CANT WAIT! I dont think I've ever had a boyfriend that calls me beautiful and i love it. I'm happy. He makes me laugh, and he accually what to talk and be around me, he's awsome.  i just wanna rape him. i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really wished he was here! RIGHT NOW AT THIS VERY SECOND so i can kiss him and hold and and squeeze him forever. Zippidy do dah zipidy day my o my what a wounderful .....kitty.... I'm really bored..so i'm eating cold pizza! WOO WOO WOOO! I wished i had a million dollars i would buy you a house FUCK YOU if i had a million dollars i would buy myself a house HA HA HAHAHAHA! LOSER!!!!!!! no your the loser! NO YOU ARE! DUH LOSER! FRIDAY COME COME FRIDAY DAY OF FRI COME! Well have fun! I LIKE RAINBOWS!! ~peace~ Current Mood: bouncy (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
10:08 pm	what a wonderful life this isnt the usual person that types on this journal this is richard and i started to go out with chelsea and i havent seen her ever sense we started to go out which sucks really bad and i can not wait untill we see each other i am going to give her the biggest kiss ive ever givin anyone i just want to hang out with her. and i am really looking forward to halloween. i cant wait it is going to be the first time for me. (not for sex)but for something else that only a select few no about I CANT WAIT. i feel bad for chelsea and krysti becouse they would still be friends if i wouldnt have fucked everything up becouse i broke up with krysti which we only went out for a month and it has been 3 weeks sense we have been broken up. then i go out with chelsea and krysti hates us both all becouse of me and it makes me feel terrible i ruand a really good relationship but i am not going to put my feelings in the back of my head. i just cant do it i like her (chelsea) and if it makes people mad that we are going out then i guess they will just have to deal with it becoase i am my own person and i dont care who you are i wil do and say what ever the hell i want to but i do not know what do do about the whole situation becouse i do not like people being mad at me well i am gonna get outta here all you fuckers that do not like me well i got something for you and it is not nice so ha Current Mood: good Current Music: sublime (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
10:44 pm	I have a boyfriend.... It’s crazy.... I like my life right now... The only bad part..... Right....is I don't have a best friend named krysti anymore.... In fact I don't have a friend named krysti. Actually the name krysti is a distant name... A name that is in the back of my head... One that I will only speak of when unimportance is on topic...  This person is never coming back..... She's going to stay in her grave I dug for her for the rest of my life..... I  don't think I've ever felt like this towards anything before.... I feel sadness and rage all through me.... But a little bit of bitter sweet happiness and relief... Sadness.....Krysti and I are no longer friends.... A good friendship ruined because of something that has a penis... Something that shouldn't ever get in the middle of a friendship... Something that should just be forgotten... I am sorry for not waiting. Don’t get me wrong, I'm not a complete bitch about this whole deal. What I'm saying is, she fucked bucky...if she can go have sex with someone when she says, and I quote, “I’m never having sex again, unless it’s with Richard." Well obviously you’re over him. YOU had sex and it WASN'T with Richard now was it. No, it was with Bucky, right next to me, upstairs, on a blanket, in Cory’s room next to his bed. Rage....Krysti's talk shit about me. Shit that really pisses me off. Shit that someone shouldn't be saying when they used to be friends, more than friends... Fuck we were like sisters. I loved it, ... yeah she was a bitch the whole time we were friends, ok not the whole time, but she had a lot of her days when she just was .....AHHHHH.....but I still loved her I always loved her I will always remember her, and the wonderful times we had together, but I can't be her friend. If she can say that about me then I want her to die. She should have hit me Saturday night. I wouldn't have hit her then, but now if she hits me I won’t hesitate to hit back. I don't want to hit her, I'm not going up to her and be an immature little girl and start shit. But what ever, I guess. Bitter sweet happiness... I have a boyfriend. I like him. I've liked him for like 3 years now. He told me he like me Friday night. I was like sweet you know. Someone likes me. The bad thing is that it’s my former best friends EX-boyfriend. And she just LOVED him. Yeah well he likes me now. She likes Bucky. I like Richard. Bucky wants to be a whore. WOW! Sounds GREAT!!! I want her to be happy why can't Richard and I be happy. Well...anyways... Relief...A friendship that was already cracking was finally shattered. She didn't want to be my best friend because I was going to a different school... in the same town I might add. Yeah that’s just fucking RETARDED! Its not like I was dropping off the face of the earth and never finding my way home... O well I've got 1/2 of what I need to say out. I'm sorry things had to end up this way. I really am, but this is how you’re making it. I hope Krysti has a good life. I hope she falls in love with the man of her dreams, has beautiful kids, remembers the wonderful time we've had, and very, very, occasionally let me know she's still breathing. I want all my other friends to please not to ever leave my side through anything. I'll always love you guys, Brandy, Deanna, Megan, I love you... School was good today. It was my first day at McCall. I met new friends, one was named Justin but the rest I already knew. Brooke goes to school there I was real glad to see her face. I hung out with my old friend Tara Pollitt that was fun... Umm...School doesn’t start until 8:30 lunch is at 11:30 we got like 50 mins for lunch today. Then I left at 1:15 to go to college. Get out at 2:45 that’s still 5 mins earlier than I would if I stayed in high school or McCall. I love my days. The class I'm working on is literature I finished 4 assignments, I think that’s good. But I’m not for sure. Well I’ve talked enough. But I didn’t say I CANT wait until HALLOWEEN WEEKEND!!!!!! I'm so excited and I just can’t hide it! Ok well I'm tired and I need to talk to Richard so have fun. ~peace~ *stewy* (3 Comments |Comment on this)
9:23 pm	Wow... I have a boyfriend.... its crazy.... I like my life right now... The only bad part..... right....is I don't have a best friend named krysti anymore.... In fact I don't have a friend named krysti Actually the name krysti if a distant name... A name that is in the back of my head...  One that I will only speak of when unimportance. is on topic... This person is never coming back..... She's going to stay in her grave I dug for her for the rest of my life..... I don't think I've ever felt like this towards anything before.... I feel sadness and rage all through me.... But a little bit of bitter sweet happiness and relief... Sadness.....Krysti and I are no longer friends.... A good friendship ruined because of something that has a penis... Something that shouldn't ever get in the middle of a friendship... Something that should just be forgotten... I am sorry for not waiting. Dont get me wrong, I'm not a complete bitch about this hole deal. What I'm saying is, she fucked bucky...if she can go have sex with someone when she says,  and I quote, " I'm never having sex again, unless its with Richard."  Well obviously your over him. YOU had sex and it WASN'T with Richard now was it. No, it was with bucky, right next to me, upstairs, on a blanket, in cory's room next to his bed. Rage....Krysti's talk shit about me. Shit that really pisses me off. Shit that someone shouldn't be saying when they used to be friends, more than friends.. fuck we were like sisters. I loved it, ... yeah she was a bitch the whole time we were friends, ok not the whole time, but she had alot of her days when she just was .....AHHHHH.....but i still loved her I always loved her I will always remember her, and the wonderful times we had together, but I can't be her friend. If she can say that about me then I want her to die. She should have hit me saturday night. I wouldn't have hit her then, but now if she hits me I wont hesitate to hit back. I don't want to hit her, I'm not going up to her and be an immature little girl and start shit. but what ever. . Bitter sweet happiness... I have a boyfriend. I like him. I've liked him for like 3 years now. He told me he like me friday night. I was like sweet ya know. Someone likes me. The bad thing is,  its my former best friends  EX-boyfriend. And she just LOVED him. Yeah well he likes me now. She likes bucky. I like richard. Bucky wants to be a whore. WOW! Sounds GREAT!!! I want her to be happy why can't Richard and I be happy. Well...anyways.. Relief...A friendship that was already cracking  was finally shattered.  She didn't want to be my best friend becasue I was going to a different school... in the same town I might add. Yeah thats just fucking RETARDED! Its not like I was dropping off the face of the earth and never finding my way home...   O well I've got 1/2 of what I need to say out. I'm sorry things had to end up this way. I really am, but this is how your making it. I hope Krysti has a good life. I hope she falls in love with the man of her dreams, has beautiful kids, remembers the wonderful time we've had, and very, very, occasionally let me know she's still breathing. I want all my other friends to please not to ever leave my side through anything. I'll always love you guys, Brandy, Deanna, Megan, I love you... School was good today. It was my first day at McCall.  I met new friends, one was named Justin but the rest I already knew. Brooke goes to school there I was real glad to see her face.  I hung out with my old friend Tara Pollitt that was fun.. umm...School dont start untill 8:30  lunch is at 11:30 we got like 50 mins for lunch today. then I left at 1:15 to go to college. Get out at 2:45 thats still 5 mins earlier than i would if I stayed in high school or mccall. I love my days. The class I'm working on is literature I finished 4 assignments, I think thats good. but im not for sure. Well i've talked enough..but I didnt say I CANT wait untill HALLOWEEN WEEKEND!!!!!! I'm so esited and I just cant hide it! ok well I'm tired and I need to talk to richard so have fun. ~peace~ *stewy* Current Mood: baffeled (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 14th, 2005
11:46 pm	I went ot a haunted house to night and it was fun.. NOT!!!!!!!!!!! it was scarey! there was this clown and i cryed it was so scarey! My head it tight from laughting so much. klkhgflklklkklklklkklklklkllklklklkkkklkkklkkklllkllllllklklklk. i just dont understand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 9th, 2005
11:49 pm	I HAVE A BOYFRIEND! Hes cute and all that other goood stuff O YEAH!! WOOOO WOOOOO WOOOOO! I like him.............. SOAP CARVER! well have fuinand die! ~peace~ (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
10:00 pm	well to all you fuckers that talk shit......... ITS NEGATIVE!!!!!!! O yeah, uh-huh, in your face! hahahahahaahah! HA! Anyways, on with other news.... Me and josh broke up sunday. It makes me really really really sad. I cryed so much. Even on monday i was still crying, my mom said i was crying in my sleep too. I like this kid so much i dont understand it. But hey thats how life is,....i guess? . Heh when my mom took me to school i was crying and she was like are you gunna be ok. i said yeah ....... if broken hearts are ok. then she said none of the other boyfriends affected you this much. thats because i didnt like any of them as much as i like this kid, DUH! (eccept Eric) so she told me i didnt have to go to school but i went well at least till lunch. I cant help but look at him, and it makes me sad when i see him...... BUTT GUESS WHAT..... We hung out today!!!!  He drove my car, and i had FUN FUN FUN indeed! Heh he broke my peace sign light thingy. Yep. well now if i hear anyone say anything about something their in for a big big big ordeal! WOW! no one EVEN knows! i'll freek. I'll kill someone! Iwll. i'll do it. i really will. Ok anyways yeah. I LOVE JOSH!!! Current Mood: guilty (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
9:41 pm	This is how I'll do it..................       Slit my wrists and neck and lay there till i bleed todeath but i dont want it messy so ........take 1000 pills and go somewhere where i wont be found for a day or so.  i like the cutting gbetter though........... or accadently fall on a knife so it goes through me heart. Wont that be fun? I'll know the 27 how i'm gunna do it! or even if i have toooooooo! I love you josh! Current Mood: chipper (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 12th, 2005
8:16 pm	Guess what!  Guess what!  Guess what! I HATE MY LIFE! And boyfriends. Why do they get mad at the stupidest things. Ok I know this couple....... He says she smokes weed to much..... So he says.. he gunna get heroin... Yeah thats gay. It makes me mad.  Weed and heroin are way different! Anyways...living at canton lake now! Still homeless!  Fun fun. Hopefully we move to banner! That would be sweet. Cuz josh lives there. Ohhh Yeahhhh!  I have to poop. ~peace~ Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Monday, September 5th, 2005
9:34 pm	JOsh is making me mad. I guess he thinks ive cheated on him. I dont understand it im either with him or im with krysti and i WONT EVER EVER EVER EVER CHEAT ON HIM! and i guess hes been hangin out with lacy all weekend when i was gone. I hope he was smart. I really really do. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 29th, 2005
9:42 pm	If I do I'm killing myself. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 27th, 2005
1:05 am	In a Past Life... You Were: A Kind Assassin. Where You Lived: Ireland. How You Died: Hung for treason. Who Were You In a Past Life? Your IQ Is 85 Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average Your General Knowledge is Above Average A Quick and Dirty IQ Test You Are a Freedom Rocker! You're stuck in the 70s - for better or worse Crazy hair, pot soaked clothes, and tons of groupies Your kind showed the world how to rock Is that freedom rock?... Well turn it up man! What Kind of Rocker Are You? Your Slanguage Profile Canadian Slang: 100% Aussie Slang: 25% New England Slang: 25% Prison Slang: 25% Southern Slang: 25% Victorian Slang: 25% British Slang: 0% What Slanguage Do You Speak? (Comment on this)